Showing posts with label #WIP. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #WIP. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 10, 2023

In Which I Admit I May Only Be A Middle Grade Writer, And That's Okay

Remember my last post when I thought I had worked through my psychological turmoil and might actually be able to finish my contemporary romance? Well, all I have to say to that is, ha ha ha, joke's on me because I've added all of 3,000 words to that book since July. I love the idea of finishing that book, but I don't actually love that book. Maybe I'll finish it someday. It feels wrong to leave unfinished a project that's 25,000 words in. But I've given myself permission to do it. I just don't love writing outside the middle grade space, it turns out.

One of my friends in the #MGWaves is a writing craft nerd, and she offered to do an outline workshop with some of us. That gave me the impetus to dust off an idea I had almost a year ago. I even wrote a few chapters of that version of the idea, but I was trying to narrate it in the voice of Charles Dickens and, surprise surprise, that's actually really hard. I think I nailed the first chapter, but then when my critique group read the second chapter they wondered why Dickens wasn't narrating anymore. Could I have done more reading, gone through a million edits, and eventually gotten it right? Maybe. But in the end I found I just didn't have the ambition to attempt it.

So the Dickens inspired Christmas ghost story was tossed into the bin. But a skeleton of a winter ghost story with darkness and light, grief and joy, remained. So I gave it flesh. The ghost is now the MC's older sister. The first names have changed to match the theme. The family is much more fleshed out and much more flawed. Real wrong has been done to the vengeful ghosts.

Basically it's a whole lot better than the original idea. I still only have an outline (though a pretty detailed one thanks to my awesome friends) and character sketches, but it's something. 

And of course I made a new moodboard/aesthetic, because that's what I do. Here it is, in all its glory. Now let's see if I can actually make this thing into a completed manuscript. Whether that then makes it into a book is not up to me, as I have painfully learned, but finished manuscript is something I can control and I hope I can push past my hard feelings about querying the manuscript that would be "the one" for nearly two years now and get this story written. I think it has the potential to be something really beautiful. Maybe even better than Harbor Lightkeep. And that's saying a lot. Because I did not think I could beat a glucose alert fox.



Friday, December 2, 2022

In Which I Hang Onto a Teeny, Tiny, Gossamer Thread of Hope

It's Advent, the season of hope and waiting. I don't talk much about my faith on this blog, so, in case you didn't pick this up earlier, I'm a Christian. As a Christian, during this season of the year I celebrate the creator of the universe coming to Earth as a tiny, helpless, newborn baby. If that's not a miracle to be in awe of I don't know what is.



Even many who aren't traditionally religious think of this time of year as a season full of hope and potential miracles. Many people are hoping for a "Christmas miracle."

I'm not expecting a publishing Christmas miracle. Well, unless it's a certain Big 5 publisher settling the strike and actually listening to their employees (hint, hint HarperCollins). But I certainly wouldn't say no to it. I actually tweeted jokingly about my publishing Christmas wish last week and it went, well, not truly viral but at least viral-adjacent as opposed to most of my tweets that get 0-6 likes.

I'm still hanging onto a teeny, tiny thread of hope for my steampunk airship adventure. It's still in about 20 agent inboxes and until the last one passes there's hope that one of them will be the agent who falls in love with it. But the hope is pretty tenuous. The agent I thought was my best chance, who asked for a revision back in June, recently passed on the manuscript. She didn't like the direction I took the revision in. I guess it's better to find out now that we have different editorial visions than after I sign a contract, but it was still heartbreaking.

As if that wasn't enough, the full manuscript of my Nutcracker reimagining was with an editor who is normally only open to agented submissions thanks to a pitch contest like. Earlier this week she passed on it not because of weakness in the writing but because she just didn't think it was a perfect fit for her.

To be clear, I'm disappointed but I'm not angry with the agent or the editor. Agents spend a lot of time with client manuscripts and need to go through a long slog of pitching them to swamped editors. Editors devote a lot of time and effort to manuscripts they sign and it's not worth their time to work on a book they don't love. Yes, agents and editors receive manuscripts that are poorly written, but at least as often they have to pass on things that are well written and just don't light them on fire. Think about your own reading habits. You don't check out every single book in the library or buy every single book at the bookstore. Most of the books you pass up aren't bad. They're just not books you're currently excited about.

On the heels of two rejections I was pretty hopeful about, I was briefly ready to throw in the towel or just take a long break. It's been a year since I started querying my Steampunk book. I've spent the year doing a bunch of smaller tweaks and one major revision. I've lost count of the times I've tweaked my query and opening pages. According to all the advice out there I've done all the right things and should have been overrun with requests at least if not offers. My book has all kinds of things agents are supposed to be looking for. It has disability rep. It has queer rep. It has a diverse cast. It addresses climate change. It's a mystery to me why it hasn't gotten more full requests.

But I don't get to control what agents and editors think. I only get to control what I write. I tried to start writing something new this spring but I kept stopping and starting with it and never got very far. Only time will tell, but so far I'm much more excited about my new #WIP. I enjoy reading adult contemporary romance and I liked the idea of writing one, but it doesn't excite me the way middle grade does. Reading and writing middle grade lights me on fire in a way other types of books don't. Yes, I can appreciate books in other age groups. Someday I might even write one. But middle grade is where my heart is.

And when it comes down to it, that's why I'm not ready to give up on pursuing traditional publication. When I decided to get serious about writing again three years ago I knew it would be hard. I didn't know it would be "writing and querying three books over three years with three requests between them that all ended in rejection" hard. Some people would have been ready to quit well before this time. And there is nothing wrong with that. Your mental and emotional health is more important than reaching the elusive goal of getting a book traditionally published. 

There are moments when I feel like it might be time to quit. But when it comes down to it I'm not ready.  I've liked all the paid jobs I've had. This fall I started a part time job teaching a two year old preschool class and I might actually like that one best of all. But what really lights me on fire, what really makes me feel like I'm doing what I was created to do, is writing. Until I stop feeling that, I'm going to keep plodding up this mountain path of unknown length full of logs, rocks, and roots. I may stop for awhile and take a rest on one of the logs, but I'm not ready to head down the mountain just yet. 




Tuesday, November 8, 2022

In Which a New Idea Grabs My Attention

Querying right now is soul sucking. There. I said it. I don't know if there's a better way for agents to make connections to writers they want to represent. I don't blame the agents for being busy and taking a long time to respond. I do sometimes wish I could go back in time to a time when there were fewer people trying to be published and seriously pursue being published then, but time machines are not a thing. Plus, I know that I'm a better writer now so there's that.

In large part due to the soul-suckingness of querying, I've found it really hard to get into writing something new. Harbor Lightkeep is the fourth book I've queried and I didn't have this problem with the other three, but I think the very fact that it's the fourth and I'm still trying to find an agent is part of what's stopping me. Every single time I finish a book I think "Okay, this one is going to be the one." And so far it never has been. 

It also doesn't help that I recently started a part time job, teaching two year old preschool three days a week. I love the job, even with all the dirty diapers I have to change, but it does limit my potential writing time. At the very least I blame the new job, which I started in October, for me not blogging in October.

I kept telling myself I was going to finish the adult contemporary romance I started in March this fall but no matter how many times I opened my computer and stared at the document I just could not work up the energy to add to the story. I do hope to finish that book someday. I really love the world I dreamed up. But romance just doesn't light my heart on fire the way middle grade does. So I officially gave up pretending my fall goal was to finish that book.

Finally, just over a week ago, a new idea grabbed onto me. I had always been intrigued by the seed of a the 200 word story I wrote last fall for #FallWritingFrenzy and kind of wanted to do more with the idea of a grieving girl summoning the ghost of her twin. But I wasn't sure where to go with it until suddenly I was.

The original story was inspired by a photo of a Dia de los Muertos ofrenda. But, while I feel a deeper connection to Latinx cultures than I often do to the cultures of my own ancestors thanks to the combination of my degrees in Spanish and having a child in a Spanish Immersion school, I don't want to steal a culture that doesn't belong to me for an entire novel. I toyed with the idea of having the story center around Halloween and the autumnal equinox and the traditions from many cultures that involve spirits visiting our world at that time of year. But it just wasn't clicking for me.

Finally I remembered my favorite ghost story from childhood: A Christmas Carol. The tradition of telling ghost stories at Christmas never caught on in America, but it was huge in Victorian England and well before that so there's a rich culture to draw from. Plus, I love the idea of the veil between the living and the dead thinning at the darkest time of the year. I still have a lot of planning and research to do before I can do this story justice, but I'm finally really excited about something again. So I present to you the moodboard for what I'm currently calling #SpookyGhostTwinChristmasWIP. Although I've never actually used that hashtag since I'm taking a twitter break while I research and draft. And, no, this is not a NaNoWriMo project. It's just a project I happen to have started in November. 



Tuesday, June 29, 2021

In Which I Recommend Some Books With LGBTQIA+ Representation


Now that I my kids are on summer break, I've found I have significantly less time to do anything other than hang out with my ten year old. Add in polishing up ANNA OTTO IS NOT A HORSE GIRL, which I've just started querying, and slowly working on my #WIP, and that doesn't leave much time for blogging. I have a little time right now, though, and I don't want Pride Month to end without giving some recommendations for middle grade books with queer rep.

Pictured above are three middle grade books I own and love with three different types of queer rep. The queer community is really diverse, and I'm glad to see a growing number of books in the middle grade market that shows that diversity. Queer rep is about more than girls having crushes on girls or boys having crushes on boys, though that's absolutely something that should be present in middle grade books.

Cattywampus is a dual POV book starring two twelve year old witches. Catybird looks like and identifies as a girl, but she is intersex and has XY chromosomes. She's afraid that because she's "not a real girl", her magical powers, which pass from mother to daughter in her family, will never work right. Some people might wonder why we need intersex rep in books because it's so rare. I learned recently that intersex people make up 2% of the population, which is the same percentage as the number of natural redheads. No one says natural redheads are so rare they don't need to see themselves in books. An important but non POV character in Cattywampus has two moms, so Ash managed to work in a little bit more queer rep, which is great.

The Sal and Gabi duology by Carlos Hernandez is part of Rick Riordan presents line. These are books written by BIPOC creators and about BIPOC kids featuring the writers' culture, folktales, myths, etc. Sal and Gabi is unusual for the line in that it's more science fiction than fantasy, but it's infused with Hernandez's Cuban American culture. It's not a part of the main storyline, but the MC, Sal Vidon, is aromantic and asexual. He's at an age when many kids are having their first crushes and even starting to date, and Sal makes it clear that crushes and dating are not part of who he is. I love how it's woven naturally into the story and doesn't feel forced.

The third book pictured is the second in the Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard series, by superstar "storyteller of the gods" Rick Riordan. One of the important secondary characters is Alex Fierro, who is genderfluid. Alex most often identifies as a girl and uses female pronouns but sometimes identifies as a boy and uses male pronouns. Alex and MC Magnus even have a conversation about what it means to Alex to be genderfluid and how it's different from someone who is nonbinary and uses they/them pronouns. This storyline fits perfectly into the Norse mythology that the series is based on. Alex is the child of Loki who, in the myths, was usually male but was sometimes female. Usually if Loki has a demigod child he is the child's father. In Alex's case he appeared as a woman and tempted Alex's father. There's some good queer rep in Riordan's Heroes of Olympus and Trials of Apollo books as well.

Of course these three books aren't the only queer MG books out there. They're just three that I love enough to own copies of. A few more I've read this year are Kacen Callender's King and the Dragonflies, which features a middle school boy coming to terms with his older brother's death and his own sexuality, The Only Black Girls in Town by Brandy Colbert which stars a girl with two dads, and The List of Things That Will Not Change by Rebecca Stead, which tells the story of the MC's dad getting married to another man. The third book in the Love, Sugar, Magic series by Anna Meriano deserves an honorable mention for its portrayal of two boys who might, or might not, have a crush on each other. At this age a lot of kids are figuring out their feelings of attraction, and I love that this was worked naturally into the story. Finally, another honorable mention is Sarah Kapit's Get a Grip, Vivy Cohen, which features an important subplot with Vivy's brother realizing he's gay and starting to date another boy. There are other books that casually mention a character having two aunts or two uncles who aren't featured in the book or a kid at school who has two moms or two dads. This has become common enough that I don't even have a specific list of books with this in mind.

I don't feel like I'm qualified to write a main character who is genderqueer or attracted to the same gender or multiple genders because that's not my experience, though I may try it with an important secondary child character someday. When I wrote my first MG book sixteen years ago, queer rep wasn't even on my radar. That book will probably never see the light of day, not unless I rewrite the whole thing. I may work some casual queer rep into it, but it wouldn't be the focus of the story. The second manuscript I finished, which, after six months on the shelf and then a massive rewrite, became ANNA OTTO IS NOT A HORSE GIRL features an important secondary character with two moms. They're only on page once and only mentioned a handful of times, but I specifically put them in because I wanted kids with two moms or two dad to feel seen. My WIP has more queer rep, though it's mostly in the adult characters. Two women who will be important mentors to the MC are married to each other. I'm still working out the details, but the book will also have asexual rep, which I can write from my own experience as a woman on the asexual spectrum. Someday I'd like to write an asexual MC, but, since I didn't realize I was on the asexual spectrum until I was in my 40's, it's more difficult for me to imagine writing a young adolescent who is actually aware of their asexual identity. 

Whether you, your child, or a child in your life as a student, library patron or other non family role, identify as part of the queer community and these books can serve as a mirror or you simply want to read or have the kids in your life read books featuring a diversity of experiences to better understand the world, there are a growing number of books in the middle grade realm that will do just that.




 

Wednesday, February 24, 2021

In Which I Am the All-Powerful Overlord (Overlady?) of a New World

There's lots of advice out that there in writer-land that, in order to stop yourself from going crazy while querying agents with one manuscript (or while one manuscript is on submission after you get an agent), you should focus your attention on writing a new one. I ignored that advice for a few months after finishing MOUSECRACKER, the book I'm querying right now, but I've finally narrowed down the book I want to work on from among my many ideas.

I won't announce my tentative title since it's so tentative and not that great, but the book is in the steampunk genre, which, in case you don't know, is a subgenre of science fiction. A quick definition of steampunk is that it imagines a present or future in which, instead of the internal combustion engine having been invented, the steam age continued, and produced all kinds of amazing technology. There are nearly always airships present in steampunk (think 19th century sailing ship crossed with a blimp or hot air balloon), and technology powered by a dazzling array of metal gears. As I dug into my main character, I came up with a new aesthetic.


My WIP stars 12yo Harbor Lightkeep, who has grown up at an inn and lighthouse for airships with her twin brother, father, and grandfather. Because imagining a world powered by steam was not enough for me, I'm creating a completely different version of earth - divided into artificial climate zones and controlled by powerful empires, most of which have never existed in our world. 

I shared some of my process with my writing peeps, the #MGWaves, and one friend pointed out that I'm basically the all-powerful overlord (or maybe I should say overlady) of this world I'm creating. It turns out worldbuilding for science fiction is many steps above worldbuilding for the contemporary and contemporary fantasy books I've written so far. It's a lot of work, but also a lot of fun. I mean, really, who but a writer gets to create a brand new world? Here's a sneak peak of my first attempt to divide up the world map in a new way.


I've so far sent about 30 queries out for MOUSECRACKER, and received mostly form rejections in return, despite having changed my query letter and opening pages twice. The only slightly positive response I've gotten was from an agent who took the time to say that the story wasn't for her, but the query and pages were very strong and she was sure someone else would request. I was starting to feel discouraged about my chances of ever finding an agent. I still love and believe in that story and am far from giving up on it, but, for the moment, I'm loving my new story even more and believe it may turn out to be even better. At the very least, it's a great way to occupy my mine while I wait for news.


In Which I Review My Year in Reading for the Third Time

 I've always read a lot, but for most of my life I never recorded what I read. I know I can do it electronically via Goodreads, but I on...